Reset, Rise, Repeat

Once again, my life is undergoing changes, and once again, I am transforming something within myself. Above all, these changes are internal, as everything begins within us.

Firstly, it's about setting new goals. I once again have a clear direction, a sense of purpose. Professionally, my aspiration is to grow as a writer and make writing my main source of income. And I've already embarked on this journey—I’ve started writing a book.

Living in my current apartment has begun to feel oppressive: these shared walls, the constant proximity to other people, and the countless rules one must follow to avoid eviction. Hence, another significant goal is to purchase a home near the ocean. Right now, I have no idea how I’ll achieve this, but I don’t need to. I have made my desire clear, and the universe knows the shortest path to realizing it. It's important not to limit the universe with unnecessary details—it knows better and will assist. It always helps when our wishes are sincere and heartfelt. Everything I've truly desired has come true, so now it's time for new goals.

Secondly, I've completely stopped drinking alcohol. Since November of last year, my alcohol consumption has significantly declined—only one or two drinks per week, or often none at all. But last weekend, I got drunk for the first time since then and realized it's completely uninteresting to me now. Some might say moderation is key, but what's the point? Even one drink harms the body, clouds the mind, and prevents full recovery.

I crave clarity of thought, enhanced intuition, and deeper immersion in esoteric practices—alcohol, even in small amounts, hinders all of these. Esotericism and alcohol are fundamentally incompatible. Moreover, I want my body to fully recover, and even a single drink per week disrupts this process.

I'm genuinely happy that I no longer have the urge to drink when I'm feeling down. However, I must admit that I smoked half a cigarette to calm myself recently. I've tried smoking before and never understood why people did it, but now I think I do. To clarify, I haven't taken up smoking regularly—it was simply what I needed at that particular moment, and it was just half a cigarette. Surprisingly, it didn't make me feel bad as it had previously. Honestly, I’d prefer an occasional cigarette over alcohol.

Thirdly, of course, I intend to continue traveling as frequently as possible. There are so many places I still want to explore. My next adventure is already planned: Burning Man. I've dreamed about attending this festival for many years. In just six weeks, another dream will come true. Spending a week living in the desert seems utterly wild, and I can’t wait to experience it.